donderdag 10 mei 2012

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I'm linking up with Galit and Nicole.

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When I started this blog, it was all about me. 
I mentioned that I had children,
even included their pictures and talked about them sometimes,
but it was about me. (Me, me, me!)
About finding myself after burn out and depression.
A place to share and store my little projects.
A place where I could be me.

Along the way I rediscovered my love for writing and photography
and I started to write longer posts. (Sorry!)

But somewhere along the line my kids took over.

 I kind of retreated from motherhood during my depression.
It went very gradually.
I still hugged my kids, took care of them and absolutely loved them.

But there was this part of me,
that started to be convinced, that I was a horrible mother.

Why was everything taken so much energy?
Why did I find mothering three kids so hard,
while others seemed to be doing it easily.

It must be me, I thought.

I discovered that I'm not a horrible mother,
I discovered that there was nothing wrong with me.
Ehm, no, actually, I discovered that there was something wrong with me,
but that it was not my fault.
And being a mother while thinking: "I suck at this," is no fun.


Right now, I'm a mother who thinks: "I'll be fine, I can handle this."

It's such a huge difference.

So this is still NOT a mommy blog, it's a mother's blog.
( I am mostly trying to convince myself)

It's a blog about me, my battle against depression,
and all the things I love and that includes my kids!
(Yes, I love my husband too, but I grant him a little bit of privacy.)

So to answer that question,
I speak for my soul.
A soul that has been silent and broken for way too long.
But that soul is coming out of her shell.








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'I speak for my soul' ... perfection from one who has had to reach so deep within.
Thank you for sharing your heart here today and linking with us xxxx
My recent post Paying your kids.
1 reply · active 689 weeks ago
Thank you Nicole, and thank you for this wonderful opportunity to link up.
I really loved this linkup! xoxo
Mother's blog...
That I like.
I love your voice and the way you use it through your photos and your words.
You are a beautiful person and mother.
Don't ever forget that.
1 reply · active 689 weeks ago
Thank you so much Kimberly. Wonderful people like you, make sure that I don't ever forget. xoxo
Oh my God: Its as if I wrote this! When I started blogging I had no idea the direction my blog would take, I just knew I needed something for me and about me... this is perfect, absolutely perfect:

"It's a blog about me, my battle against depression,
and all the things I love and that includes my kids!
(Yes, I love my husband too, but I grant him a little bit of privacy.)"

And, oh my... photography -- photography is a part of my stay mentally well, kick depression in the booty regimen!
My recent post Painting Outside the Lines
1 reply · active 689 weeks ago
My goodness! We have to hook up, you know we have to!
Next on my list: visit your blog and read as much as I can.
(I will get to it, soon)
Thank you, Amy!
Oh this a stunning ode to your process and journey as a mother writer.

I'm so glad to have a slice of your story right here.

(Thank you. Truly.)
My recent post Fat
1 reply · active 689 weeks ago
Thanks Galit, for the awesome linkup.
And thank you for your wonderful words!
Hoi Mirjam,
Ik zeg, lekker door blijven kruipen, zonder haast, je doet het goed....!
Fijn weekend meisje,
Liefs,
Mirjam
1 reply · active 689 weeks ago
Hoi lieve Mirjam,
Dank je wel!
Fijn weekend en fijne moederdag.
Groetjes Mirjam
Your beautiful soul shows through every time you post :)
1 reply · active 689 weeks ago
That is so nice, Bridget. Thank you so much!
And you have a beautiful soul!
My recent post The Race

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